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If I could listen to one CD for the rest of my life I would probably choose Psycho le Cemu's *Frontiers* CD because it was so pivotal in changing my life and my passions.

Let's speculate on how different everything would have been for me, had PLC not gone with the all white theme that caught Laura's eye while she was looking through other CDs. Without *Frontiers* Laura would never have gotten into PLC and might have become a hard-core AYUMI girl. *eep* I would have never heard *Gekiai Merry-Go-Round* which helped convince me to go to AnimeOverDose in San Fransisco with Laura. We never would have taken our very first *just-the-two-of-us-we-are-so-totally-adults-now* trip to SF to see them in concert. (Which, consequently, also taught us that we could BOTH live off a $10/day budget on food. LOL~) Our parents probably wouldn't have allowed us to go to Japan that following Christmas, by ourselves, had we not proven that we wouldn't end up going with a crazy serial killer. I would never have caught AYA's guitar pick at the second concert. We would have never fallen in love with furitsuke if we hadn't seen YURAsama and AYA doing *Yume Kazaguruma* live. We wouldn't have learned about (and become completely obsessed with) the PLC members' personalities without watching *King of Tsuuhan* at the PLC fan-run panel. I wouldn't have changed my favorite member from DAISHI to Lida (and Laura: AYA to seek) had we not gone to their Q and A session. I would never have found out that I love the color orange and that I look damn good in it. LOL~ We would have never gotten Shara into PLC. We would never have traveled Japan a second time to follow their farewell tour. We never would have collected so many tour goods~! We wouldn't have become close to so many different fans via livejournal. We wouldn't even have livejournals had the American fan base not set up here~! We woudln't have become friends with Nora, Sheena or Noreene (and I guess John and Harry too). So many different outcomes.



All that and the fact that I own 5 copies of the CD means I never have to worry about losing it or not knowing where I can get the tracks if ever my iPod breaks.

This month is NaNoWriMo... National Novel Writing Month.

I decided to take part a little late in the game, but I'm trying. LOL

So, for NaNoWriMo, you try to write a 50,000 word novel in one month. That breaks down to 1,666.67 words PER DAY from November 1st to 30th. I started on the 3rd. LOL Way to give myself a bad start. But I'm not writing COMPLETELY from scratch. I decided to take an old fanfic that I never finished and flesh it out into a novel. I'm already up to 477 words and I haven't even copied all that I had written before yet.

YAY~ I hope I finish because so many people don't and its my first time.

Here's a little excerpt that I wrote that made me laugh:
One day, Daishi had been sent in from recess for kissing a little girl on the playground and making her cry, only to find the classroom empty except for Tatsuya...

Hehe. Okay...time for more writing~!

Wish me luck~!

I think everything has settled to what it's going to be from now on. I don't really feel an attachment to home any more because I don't really have a reason to come home, or rush home if I'm out. Does that make sense? Because Louie isn't stuck here all day by himself I don't feel the need to get back here. Weird.

Anyway. Last night I stayed at Laura's house until way too late. On the drive home at 230-245 in the morning there was a weird stoppage on the 5 fwy. Four or five city trucks were blocking all the lanes. and they had lights on that made an arrow pointing to the right. It was kind of like they were herding us all to the far right lane, but when we became ONE line of cars, the flow stopped. After waiting 5 minutes at a stand still, a police car passes on the shoulder, then suddenly all the trucks move to the left shoulder, and EVERY ONE starts driving forward as if nothing happened. SO WEIRD~! but as i was passing there were a few road flares on the ground that were still burning and some wood boards the size of computer paper. Me thinks a truck spilled all these little planks and they had to pick them up by hand.

OH~! I forgot the whole beginning of that story.

So the daughter of a family friend is visiting my aunt in Norwalk (40 mi. south of my house) and my aunt was at work when my uncle -aunt's younger brother- took the girl visiting to the mall. When they left the house my aunt said *just lock the metal doors on the outside.* So, of course, they lock the doors on the outside as well as the doors on the inside. The keys to the inside doors, which my aunt hasn't locked since installing the metal doors, are all kept together inside the house. SOOOOOO everyone is sufficiently locked out. At 4-ish my aunt calls me and it turns out YEARS and YEARS ago, my aunt gave me the only spare key to the inside door at the front of the house.

After an hour and 15 minutes of driving, I let everyone in. YAY~!

But since I was already in the neighborhood, I went to visit Laura and we went to Disneyland to ride *space mountain* because it's all decked out for Halloween. It's supposed to be a scary space ride...galaxy ghost something... and I WAS SCARED~! In the picture it's a little hard to tell if I'm laughing or crying. *boo* I'm such a wimp now. Hahaha~ Sitting in the front was totally worth it. Woo hoo~

Then we went on *buzz lightyear* my shooting has gotten so much worse. Jeeez. I should find a duck hunt sort of game to keep my skills sharp. LOL

Pancakes, eggs, bacon, romaine lettuce, egg rolls, and vitamin water...aaaaaand fiber chews. HAHAHAHAHA~

All in all it was a really good night.

So...life after Louie is kind of the same. I feel tired and sad/teary if I think about it...but its pretty much the same daily routine...

The one that has been most effected by Louie's absence is Catsith. We had Louie 3 months before Catsith came to live with us. So Louie's been around the whole time. This is a big change for the catty.

Catsith is usually very VERY independent and territorial. Keeping other cats and dogs off our property was his job and he took it seriously. He would mrow and meow to be let out almost as soon as he was let in. Hahaha. In the evenings he would come home for dinner...eat a little then head out again. Always free to roam. Even our neighbors know his name and pet him or keep him company when we're not home.

Yesterday, however, he didn't leave at all. He went out to do his business a few times but took to staying within our fenced-in front yard. And he slept inside the house without a complaining meow all night. Even this morning, while calling him to come outside, he just slept on the kitchen rug.

He would also sleep in Louie's dog bed or the cave I had built for Lou under my desk. But now that these spots are vacant, he won't go near them. Poor catty...my mom thinks that now that Louie's gone, Catsith has taken on the responsibility of being the dog-of-the-house and patrols the inside. Maybe he's waiting for Louie to come home. My mom even said to him, "Louie doesn't live here any more. He lives in heaven." Catsith blinked at that sentiment and went back to sleep in the kitchen.

I've talked to him a little explaining that his brother wasn't coming home, but that he was in a good place now. Somewhere he wouldn't be scared and wouldn't always be happy. I don't know if he really understood me because he's such a rebel he doesn't let his feelings show.

Just a few days ago I could reach out to pet you.
Just a few weeks ago we explored our new neighborhood together for the first time.
Just a few months ago we met and hit it off.
Just a few years ago I didn't know I would be lucky enough to know you.

This morning Louie died.

I can't say "passed away" because that's not how it feels to me.

I still can't believe it.

Everything happened all at once. Both too fast and too slow.

Over the course of two days he had 2 seizures. One mild and one major. Saw 3 different doctors. Deteriorated right before our eyes. Went past the point of getting better. To finally leaving this world.

Pam and I won't go see him. I know it seems harsh, but it won't change what was or what is. But we have made arrangements for cremation and to have his cremains returned to us.

We're going to plant him with white flowers in front of our house.

Where he can be close to us always.

He was always so gentle and so awkward; the perfect dog for us.

I know I can never have another dog.

There will never be another Louie.

So... I live in The Valley.. (Yes, like, that Valley, like, yeah)
But I just moved here 2 years ago, so that doesn't count.
I grew up just outside the OC.
Not as depicted by that stupid MTV show. Just, NO.
Just because I'm a So Cal girl doesn't mean I enjoy the sun, the sand, and the surf.
I..don't like nature in all it's nature-i-ness. (a la the BUGS)
And I only go to the beach to eat seafood. *OMNOMNOM CRAB*
But for my vacation day (on Thursday) we decided to go to *Soak City* at Knott's Berry farm.
Because it was relatively cheap (with coupon, $21.99) and I haven't been to a water park in at least 8 years.
But our plans changed (the weather was SCORCHING!!!) and we decided (as not-so-interested-in-nature girls) to go to the Arboretum in Santa Anita. Hahaha. It seemed like a great choice. (Unless you really really think about it. 1-it's hot. like melt your face off hot. 2-we don't care much for nature aka TREES and 3-it is the end of August. Nothing is in bloom. Not even cacti)
So after an hour (going on a tram tour and seeing carnivorous plants) we went to the mall. Where we got coffee for Pam, orange julius for Laura, and a thin mint shake for me. YESSSSS..
Then we got Chinese foot massages in San Gabriel Valley.
Then we had $10 Korean BBQ in Cerritos.

I <3 So Cali.

I said I was gonna write more about *Watchmen* ..The only character I liked was Rorschach.. That's about it. Malin Akerman is a whatever actress..The Night owl(?) is whatever too.. That's about all I can muster for this movie.

( Sometimes I think my Sister is a Real Bitch )

Time for MORE *Sword of Truth*

At least in a world of magic and monsters, the love story is still very straight forward.

In a stroke of genius I decided to go to a $2 theater in Pasadena today. SUPER CHEAP~! Right?? :D The parking lot I parked in had a big wooden sign that said $.50 per half hour. >:( I already knew I wanted to watch *Fast and Furious* -2 hours- and *Watchmen* -3 hours- so my estimated parking was $5~! NOT COOL~! But.. the only other place to park would be on the street and that's for only 1 hour.. not having any other choice, I parked. The parking attendant was an old man wearing a cabana shirt. He asked me where I was going and I said, "Movie theater?" because I get nervous around strangers.. and he points to a small paper sign that says Movie theater parking FREE with ticket and tells me, "if there's anyone here to check when you leave, just show them your movie ticket and give them no money" WHAT A NICE OLD MAN~! <3~! So I walk to the box office and there's a cardboard cut out of Charlie Chaplin in the window.. but no attendant.. Weird.. so I walk to the door, go inside to where there's a cash register set up near the door and there's a sign that says Buy tickets at snack bar Hahaha~ So I go and buy both tickets -$4- and a soda -$2.75- stupid soda was more than my movie~!

First up is *Fast and Furious* I love this franchise and I know everyone talks about how the acting is lame/wooden and that Vin Diesel spews out "deep and meaningful" lines like so much poison, but WHATEVER~~~ it's an entertaining movie for entertainment's sake. That's it. I LOVE IT.. The time line is a little confusing though.. because Han (from *Tokyo Drift*) is in it...and he talks about going to Tokyo...hmm..? So..I'm guessing this movie is supposed to squeeze in after *The Fast and The Furious* and before *Tokyo Drift*.......eh. But the BESTESTEST part is Don Omar and Tego Calderon are in the opening scene~! Umm.. Google them if you don't know. Or.. I'll just tell you. They are MAJOR HUGE AMAZING reggaeton singers. AHAHAHAHAH~ Can you say "Perfect for Jenni"??! because it SOOOOOO was. I was crazy giggling because they're soooooo funny. And it was that much harder to hold it in because I was by myself. I give the movie an A- because it's everything you expect from Paul Walker and Vin Diesel. I even forgive Jordana Brewster her crazy whites-all-around-the-eye stare and fake-ass crying.

Then I made a quick bathroom break and bought a popcorn -$3- for my next movie.

*WATCHMEN*

....more on that manana....

nighty night pups~!

I think in the capitalist society we live in, if a company fails, it is for a reason... no consumers.. Why should government step in to help big companies when they let smaller companies wither away on a daily basis? Especially if the government's only role is to throw money at a situation instead of offering to help fix what was wrong with the situation in the first place. Way to micro manage a big situation.

ANYWAY~ I just spent a lot of time on *kawaii_not* it's so cute but mostly it's hilarious. Which is the purpose. Well done~ :D
These made me think of you: Laura, Laura, and Shara, Shara~ LOL.

We are gonna go look at another house today. I thought we got the Arleta house... but I was wrong. *le sigh* We should have hooked up with that Renoso guy~! DAMN.

Another day, another complaint.

Today is ticking away too slowly. >:(

Tomorrow I am gonna buy a chocolate chip cookie and go watch *Wolverine* and/or *Fast & Furious* because Pam is going to Chalita's birthday~ LOL! I have only ever watched 2 movies in the theater by myself. **EEP~!** (Guess what they are and win a prize~! You don't have to get both right.. and guess as many movies as you like. :D)

This made me think of you and laugh...